mmm, popcorn... well, not this kind.

alright so this kid thinks he's absolutely the shit. and i just don't get it. yeah, he can be fun to hang out with, but he seems to think that he always has to have the last word, or that he has to argue everything i say. which is really effing annoying.

but let's start from the beginning. a little less than a month ago, joci and i went to this party at the house of our (soon-to-be) friend. joci "met" him first, and i "met" his friend (let's call him bob). we made out a little, you know, as tends to happens when you meet people at parties. that was all fine and good. the next day, the 4 of us went to lunch together and that was fine as well. i started talking to mr. popcorn a little more, because joci seemed to be fond of him, and i wanted to get to know this kid, too. (bob was pretty much a lost cause... all he did was sleep, and he appeared to be a tool. but that's alright.) the next day joci, mr. popcorn, and myself hung out and that was pretty rad. he was a cool kid, if not a little horny (yes, joci, i would kill myself, too...). well then i don't really know how it happened, but he and i seemed to be talking a lot more, and hanging out a lot more. within just a few days, we were pretty much dating. i remember one night he walked me home and we talked for a while. after he left, i said something about not doing very well emotionally and he continually offered to come over and help take my mind off things, or listen, as i saw fit. well i told him i would be fine and that i would just talk to him in the morning. not too long later, i got a text asking if i was going to let him in or not. that's right, folks, he came over to keep me company, even though it was very late, and he had a 9:05 class the next morning. i thought it was very sweet of him. we talked for a couple hours on separate couches. then he was tired, so he laid his head on my legs. well that wasn't working so he moved to another couch. reluctantly, i followed, and we cuddled and talked some more. turns out, he wasn't doing so great himself, and we had a deeper talk than i had anticipated. it was that night that we decided to try to be together (bad decision, i know). the next day, he spent the night, but i wasn't so sure about trying a relationship anymore. i was going through my own troubles with not talking to lakebay and things of that nature, and it just wasn't a good time for me to be trying to be happy with someone else. we talked about it, and he wasn't really ready either.

you'd think that would kindof be the end of things, right? ha. not even close. we continued to talk a lot and such (the rest of the memories in the meantime haven't been quite as clear). we would still hold hands and cuddle and all that good stuff. well, i'm not really one to be able to behave that way with someone other than the person i'm dating. i just find that stuff to be kindof a big deal, and i can't go cuddling willy-nilly. i spoke to him about this one night, and he said that was fine, but that he thought he would start to grow apart from the 3 of us. (oh, shit. i left out a whole part. long story short, linds became a part of out group, and mr. popcorn, being the person that he is, decided that he wanted to go for her. well she wasn't really having it, especially after joci and i told her how he had been treating us. so, what did he do? yep, came back to me.) i told him that didn't need to happen. that we could still be friends and hang out and he tried to say he wouldn't want to anymore. well i thought that was a load of bullshit. but i told him we could still cuddle every now and then (because i want[ed] to help him out with what's going on his life, so i wanted him to stick around). well that also went further than i really wanted it to.

one night, he and i decided to watch a tv show together, online. after said show was over, we talked about the possibility of trying again, because he wasn't convinced it couldn't work (note: he was the one who really made the decision that we shouldn't try again after that first time because he didn't think we could have a "healthy" relationship). in my mind, i was doing lots of eye rolls and things of that nature, because he hadn't bothered to inform me of this until i told him i didn't want him to come back to my dorm with me, even to just talk. but i was nice about it and we talked and i, once again, gave him my reasoning why we shouldn't try anything (not including the fact that i wasn't really as attracted to him as i had been, oops...). i didn't feel he had really understood my reasoning, because he seemed to be pressuring me to get through my issues faster than would really be possible.

after another day or two, i told him that it wasn't the best time for us to try anything and he said that was alright. well, now he seems to be trying to get with joci again, because she's the only one who can really stand him. did i mention that he likes to argue everything i say? yes? good. because he does. he makes sarcastic, argumentative comments about off-handed things that i say, and it's really fucking annoying (i do believe i'm not alone on this one...). our friendship seems to slowly be deteriorating, which isn't something i want, but seems to be something i can't control.

anyway. once again, you are a champ if you actually made it through this whole post. thanks for reading, i really just needed to get it out. and writing has helped me to see i definitely made a good choice. =]